One day I watched a documentary about the sacred plant medicine Ayahuasca found and administered by shamans in the heart of the Amazonian Jungle. I knew and I felt it. I had to go experience this for myself. It didn't matter that people in my life didn't like the idea including my husband, Jon.
Nothing was going to stop me.
I was going — I heard the Mother Ayahuasca call, so Jon apprehensively decided to come with. It was 2015 and life has never been the same.
What is Ayahuasca?
Ayahuasca is a brew made from combining 2 (or more) main plants, and it is mainly a form of Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) which gives it's psychedelic properties.
Note that I have never been a user of any type of recreational or psychedelic drugs. Ayahuasca is known as a "teacher" or "wisdom" plant that serves as the gateway to the spiritual world.
Indigenous peoples throughout the world have been able to gather knowledge of plant uses by communicating directly with plants and honoring this sacred relationship.
It's important to note that life is a series of lessons, challenges, trials and much confusion. It was never meant to be 'easy', they say. And throughout our life, we accumulate ailments and disruptions that present themselves in our body, mind and spirit.
We all come to Ayahuasca with a hope of things we would like to change, learn or know. We hope there is something in the world that can help us, something that is different than anything we have tried in the past. We search for spirit. We search for meaning. So many people feel lost and scared. So many people doubt spirit and the unseen world and want it to be true. We look at our lives and get confused. Who am I really? We do not know what to make of the past, how to move forward into the future and we are unable to be content in the present. Our pasts are filled with problems, traumas, pain, suffering, loss, anger, and resentment. Our future is filled with fear and doubt. We get angry as a result and watch as it creates problems for us in our relationships. We end up hurting those closest to us. We never truly find what would fulfill us.
We were greeted and hosted by a group of Ayahuasqueros (shamans who administer the plant medicine). We found ourselves in the heart of the Amazon Jungle, outside of Iquitos, Peru —outside our comfort zone with strangers who knew the world very differently.
The ceremonies were long, enduring sacred, spiritual events which would begin at dark inside a 'Maloka' (an outdoor dwelling) and the shaman would be shaking 'Chakapa' (bundled leaves) while singing 'Icaros' (healing songs and chants in a different language). The shamans were working with energies of the unseen realms.—unseen, but very real. I vividly remember the loud, piercing noises of the jungle while allowing Ayahuasca to speak to me.
We came to Ayahuasca looking for something and we found it. We received help in ways that we could not even imagine before Ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is a gift that allows us to look into ourselves and the world with clarity. We have the opportunity to discover truth and to reevaluate our actions and relationships. We are given the chance to go through immense change in a short period of time.
I came to Ayahuasca searching for spirit, and truth and healing, and despite the fear (will I die? will this harm me?) I trusted the process. The answers I found brought change to my life that released anger, pain, suffering, trauma, hurt, judgment, sadness, and disillusion. I came to Ayahuasca, and through the many discoveries I've learned to help others find what was meaningful to them, and that brought meaning to everything.
I won't go into the "purging" process of the medicine but I can tell you it wasn't pretty. It were as if every tainted part of my being was being expelled from my mind, body, soul and spirit. And there it sits, in the bucket looking back at me knowing it no longer has a hold on me.
Since my Ayahuasca experience, much has been discovered - about myself, my life, my purpose, and life. I am so incredibly grateful for the ancient wisdom from the jungle, the indigenous cultures, the sacred plant medicine and hearing 'the call'.
Note: This blog post does not promote Ayahuasca. I believe she calls certain people to her when he or she is ready, if ever.
Note: Ayahuasca isn't a drug. It is a very strong medication that needs to be taken in the right setting and to be taken seriously and responsibly.
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